Posts Tagged ‘no sleep’

Tired, Tired and More Tired

March 8, 2010

I’m sitting here working on The Re-Write, or at least trying to work on The Re-Write, line by line, and I just can’t concentrate worth a lick. on top of that my typing is a bit off. Instead of the C, I hit the X. Instead of the D, there’s an F. It wouldn’t be so bad if the letters were in any way interchangeable but they’re not and no matter what word I’m trying to put up on the screen, it comes out entirely wrong.

I’ve went through a few cups of coffee. Tried exercising. Even tried napping.

Doesn’t help. At all. Nada. Zip. Zilch. Zero.

And I keep trying to grind out The Re-Write. Keep trying to not only find the mistakes, find the problems, then find the fixes, find the right words to take the place of wrong words, but then get them down. the whole thing pours like molassas from my fried mind through my clumsy fingers.

I’m thinking about trying tea next. this is because I have an ever dwindling supply of coffee filters, though I also have a new coffee I have been waiting to open and try. ┬áStill, i think tea will be the next attempt at forced wakefulness. It is as if I am attempting to force my mind to walk into a state roughly approximating coherence and it is stubbornly refusing to budge, having to be dragged every inch of the way.

Strangely, this blog helps a bit. Sitting down and just writing something without having to first go through the mental hoops of re-reading, criticizing, editing, etc. is liberating in a mental exercise sort of way. this isn’t to say that it will stay with me five minutes beyond finishing this blog but that maybe it will give me a five, ten, okay, thirty minute window into clarity today that I wouldn’t have had else wise. There are some days where you just take what you can get and be happy with it.